till the day that i die

smoking some cigarette to release some tension,
filling my lung with poison that will kill me,
it's easy, just inhale and puff out the smoke,
it's like oxygen, it's like my life,
alone in my own darkroom,
waiting for my angel of death to take me away,

the sun doesn't shine on me no more,
the moon just hide away when i go out at night,
the rain keeps pouring down on me,
washing away my sins,
washing away my past memories,
erasing me from history,

I've broken my own heart,
shatter into a thousand pieces,
i carried with me a shovel,
so that i could dig my own grave,
where my body will lay down,
not in peace, not in harmony,

sorrow is my friend,
demon is my company,
i don't wish for more time,
i don't wish for forgiveness,
i just wish that i won't be remember,
but it's just till the day that i die...