Wretchedness of love

The wretchedness lives in my heart forever
Contentment is just for one moment
As I look into your depressing eyes
I only saw odium burning fiercely in it.

Love is for fragile people
Once you be keen on someone
It will be very hard to disregard
Why do love that I feel for you?

Even the night turns to day
I’m still thinking of you…
People say that I am not fit for
A beautiful angel like you…

So let it be…
Even if the reality hurts me..
I will still love you…
Even if you does not know..

If I sleep I will think of you
And only you is in my mind
And my wish went I wake up
Is to have a happy ending with you…

An angel like you…
Is very hard to come by..
But why do you have to come into my life?
Thinking of you, is just making my life worst day after day..

Every time I try to forget you
The picture of you still playing in my mind…
Is this what you call love?
Is this the feeling when you start to fall in love with someone?

People laugh went I say I’m in love
It’s a lie they say..
It’s a joke for them..
It just making me even hates love…

This is how I feel about love.
Love is precious for someone…
But not for me…
For me love is dreadful, it all a recline,

I’m afraid to fall in love
I’m afraid that I will break someone’s heart,
I hate to see other people hurt
Just because what I did to them..

I odium to see moan of the person that I love
Falls to the ground..
Having a broken heart is agonizing..
It’s painful….

So in the end..
There’s no happy ending for me..
I and myself is happy
And that’s all I want….

So I will throw the feeling
That I once have for you
And I will try to forget you
Even it takes a hundred year

*the first thing i ever wrote..this is from a 2006 i think..can't really remember..